What I Desire

What I desire most from God is a very complicated question to answer. Most of what I desire is very selfish because I am very selfish. Also what I desire may change on a day to day basis depending on my mood or if my passions change. Right now the top three things I desire from God are:

1. That God would give me a burning passion for people I do not personally know. I have a hard time truly caring about people that I haven’t met, or that I don’t know very well. For example, I have a huge difficulty with praying for other countries or states, and praying for people that my friends tell me to pray for. Like when I try to pray for world hunger, for the president, or for my friend’s coach’s sister who has cancer it’s always half-hearted… or no hearted. I pray that God would put a passion for everyone He has placed on this earth in my heart. I pray that I would love them like He does.
2. I pray that God would bring to my attention the “little” sins I commit and that He would burden me with them. All sin is equal, but in this world we make certain sins not as big of a deal, like thinking negatively about someone, idolizing our friends, or doing things out of selfish ambition. Most of the time I go throughout the day doing many of these, and more, without even realizing it. I pray God brings all of these things to my attention and burdens me with them that way I can’t just selfishly shake them off and repeat them.
3. I pray that God helps me truly believe that He can do anything. Sometimes I doubt. Especially in the fact that He can save everyone from hell. I wish my brother and my earthly father would accept God into their lives and follow Him. I know God can change their hearts, but I have issues believing that. I pray for God to break their hearts for Him, but only half the time I am praying with true belief that He can. It’s really hard to believe with my dad being “set in his ways” and having the most hardened heart I’ve ever seen in my life.

These are three of the things I desire for God. I really do pray for these things and I will continue to pray for these things.