My Practices

A friend said the other night, “going through a dry season is a choice”. This statement made my mind start to analyze my life lately because I personally feel as if I’ve been going through a dry season. I started to question myself: Why is this? What am I doing differently? What am I distracting myself with that is taking my focus off of Jesus? I then, ironically, got distracted and forgot all about this statement.

                Reading this book and thinking about my practices in my quiet time that statement came back to me. Roberts says, “I’d read my Bible and pray my list every day. But it was never passionate and alive on a consistent basis. It seems there were always the ups and downs that came with that mentality.” I thought, “Oh, that’s me!” If I’m being honest, sometimes (and in sometimes I mean a lot of the times) I don’t allow Jesus to be enough. My practices of doing my quiet time: pray, read, pray, then journal maybe. One thing I know I need to fix in my patterns is if I miss my quiet time, as much as I try to deny I feel this way, I subconsciously think, “Great, now I can’t do any work for God today. I haven’t spent time with him to allow him to empower me.” Sometimes I seriously live my day for the time I’m going to read my bible, and not in a good way. Not in an excited thinking of what I’m going to get to learn or anything, but in a “I am worthless if I don’t read, therefore I should try to do nothing for the kingdom today till I can read.” And then if I miss enough days in a row of not reading I get really discouraged and like I shouldn’t even read. Such a wrong way of thinking.

Robert explains how he changed the way he did his quiet time. This is what I need to do. I’m seriously going to start now. I don’t know exactly what to change but I might try to ask myself some of the questions Roberts asks his self. I think I’ll ask God to “talk to me, reach me, tell me, convict me, show me, guide me, make your path plain” just like Roberts does.